Relationships

Firstly, please don’t think that this post is a ‘how to’ manual, or a way to fix anything that you might think is broken in your life. I shall tell you why.

I don’t understand attraction. 

I don’t get why some men make my stomach swim, and bring a throb as the blood rushes, tingling between my legs, and some (perfectly handsome and attractive men) do nothing at all for me. 

But I do know

Awakening

What is it about the turning of the earth, of the new year and the coming in of spring? It feels both vital and ancient. Made new each time. I was glad my treatment ended with the spring. It made returning to the world that little bit easier. I’d expected that it would be easy, and natural, and great, coming back into the world, but actually

A new goal!

There’s something very wonderful about a meandering river, lazily making it’s way to the sea. It might get caught in gentle eddies, it will take as long as it takes. I can be jealous of this lethargy; so often it feel like there’s somewhere I have to get to, and I need to get there now. I wonder (when I get the time to think!) whether this is just who I am, or whether the twenty-first century instills this in me, through the expectation that we’re all doing everything, all the time. Do you feel like that? I think that